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tags

sorry for dismissing my tags, and my tagcloud; i had to find a better way to make use of tags; in a way it was anoying me, i wus thinking something like, those tags should reflect what i am all about, and the way they were, they just weren’t….

lots of things being happening; i will keep jou posted, but for now it’s just finding back my resiliance (my backbone, my spine) and being a little more happy…

 

that’s all for now,

and now, to work…

peter

 

110

what? only a hundred and ten visitors today? how disapointing! (ghegehgeh šŸ™‚ ) i should have been famous by now…. no realy, today; almost 200 mb’s download? 110 visitors? i am totaly content, 132 visitors a day average, what more could i want; and i am stil growing; it is overwhelming šŸ™‚ more than 10.000 hits in 15 days, a little under 20.000 a month average, that’s good… isn’t it? you make me glad… you make my day…

i am still looking for ways to improve this site; there was a lot more on here, not so long ago, i want to offer a lot; photo’s, paintings… whatever; my posts are getting lonely, this site needs flavouring; it wasn’t supposed to be just a blog… i do a lot of things…i want to show… still… work in progress, i guess…

so, now i am going to meditate some, and then go to sleep; there are great things coming…

also i am working on a few new things; we’ll see; some more flute pieces maybe, finaly some real quena-work? i do hope so…

c ya

peter

sorry…

for those who inmediately want to check out my new photo-page… it isn’t working up to standard; i promise i will look into it; but not now; i been working my ass off for hours, and still it isn’t working…bummer!

update: i been working hard at it; but it is still not working…. better… but not like it should be… damn! c’ya in another hour maybe… (fuck! i need a meal…)

update: last effort wasn’t as much trouble as i thought; went smoothly; i think that my photopages are working now… this site is getting realy big; gheghegeh….

 

peter

update: by the way, you can download my pictures in way-big format, and print ur own poster with it; within a couple of clicks you get the Original (7 or 8 mb) picture…

sorry i been so long…

i been fucked up for awhile, in fact, still am; it has been hard; nowadays i realy stopped drinking too; sober for five weeks now; body is picking up again; though it’s a shame, i had to; two beers in a week was still too much for my body to handle, so i thought; ahhh fuck it; and; what the hell; so i stopped, and i haven’t realy regretted it; what’s wrong with an occasional beer, you say, well, nothing realy, and i do miss it, but my body couldn’t handle anymore…couldn’t ignore the loudening protest from my stomach, my spleen, and my liver (lets not forget; my kidneys too!!)

mourning the death of a friend… wondering why I lived… (and getting stronger too) (maybe i wus just in time, to take things in hand…) this is a kick in the butt…

ah, well

trying to shoot a picture of my cat, not a all content with the last pictures i shot… i am getting more demanding… want to do something with light; and now retouching some pictures is an option too- i guess i am growing…

cat is lying here beside me, on the desk; he’s a fine specimen; so fluffy; and soooo lovable; he’s got the sweetest character…hey Bobbeltje (like the name Bob; but also “lump”) (ghegheghe) can you read this? … oh, he’s gone now…

for some time, i realy felt my hart hurting and thumping pain with every beat, but i finaly got a grip on myself again; set stress on a side-track for awhile,Ā simple excorcise, lots of spirulina (sea-weed-pils (or powder) verry good for lot’s of things; i take them mostly, becouse my family has a history in cardiac-disease, and i have bad knees (yes it helps both and in addition helps my bowels too), a few special herbs… and lots of rest (no more drinking, smoking; whatever…), if i can do it the flex way, working on my site is actualy healing; it is nice, relaxed, and good therapy…and i am feeling better again! have to watch out, you know, those anti-psychotic-pils are a risk, of course…

i see my scanner has completed it’s mission to keep my browsing safe…(gehgeh) have to look in to that now… so, i’ll be seeing you…

 

lots of love…

peter

thanks

thanks for all your kind remarks and the pointers that you shared with me; at the tempo mail comes in, i will not be able to keep them all, that, and sorry for those i mistakenly regarded as spam; a site like this is a lot of work… thanks for your support!! uptil now (though it’s a lot of work) i read everything, even the most Obvious to be spam…

maybe lateron today i will post some photo’s i made; i think those were a thank you from the gods, because i participated in the eye-contact-event; i finaly got a big bird of prey, before my lens, an actual free living hunter, here in the village; though there must be more, i think it’s exciting!!! and nice pictures too… i think i am growing… ghegheghe… might be glowing too…

i will put those pics on an extra page; they are interesting enough to look at, and look at again, not like a blog, where most of the posts are actualy old news…

 

thanks again,

peter

damn!!! i fucked up… i still had my iso up…. wich means … no photo’s….helll!!! (i been waiting for so long… )

damn

a good friend of mine is dying; cancer; bleaarrgh! a bit sad… met a nice girl yesterday, i didn’t ask her number ( why bother? ) but it was good fun; probably won’t meet again (there whenĀ she was most needed)

maybe tonight i will go out and meet some friends; take my mind of things… won’t stay long… a bit fucked up, right now… won’t drink either; thea or none-alcoholic, something like that; i feel like i have seen too much…

yet another friend has been ill for a long time now; terrible disease; cancer also; i try to maintain my balance, but it’s hard…

i must say, though i am not taking this lighthearted, i am not realy depressed or something like that, i am getting better; picking up the pieces where i left… i am letting go… life has changed me… maybe i am finaly growing up…

listening to coil (horse rotorvator) & craddle of filth (cruelty and the beast) can be good therapy sometimes, save years on the couch; oh and by the way; Lana? you’re the bestest…

 

ahh well

c’ya…

-just now i hear a more distant friend has passed away… must be a big party upthere šŸ™

soooo tired

i wus advertising a lot; not that it did help, or do much good, and working hard to get my pages going; i did do a friends page aswell ( and a few others too) and now i am soooooo freaking tired- i only want the simple things; hanging round, posting something, taking a picture, writing a poemā€¦ but what i am doing now is hard work! have to keep myself informed; checking this and that; asking people for atention, for a view, socialising, networking, bookkeeping, taking wins & losses, at the same time getting myself to create something again; music, paint, photo; etcā€¦ friends asking; what are you doing? (bit anoying) working hard on myself; trying to get more work done and getting more stable at the same time; this realy fucks me up; i have had enough nowā€¦

i will keep to my plan; hey i am doing the best i can! after all i am only human tooā€¦ and i have a lot of off-days! if nescessary i will break myself freeā€¦.Ā  i will claim my life again; this is my life; my goals, what i want to do, and what i can do; i am no supermanā€¦ it is supposed to work for me, not against me!

ah well, a few successes; somewhere around 1900 folowers; thatā€™s nice; close to 100 visitors dayly on reepke.com and my other sites and blogs doing well enoughā€¦ not even close to this one, but i never intented them to beā€¦

now for a few weeks of rest and working out; i want to amuse myself wiht my posts; this has got to be; otherwise the effort is realy too muchā€¦

thinking; when did i start this crazy train? i wus getting better, years and years ago; and i wanted more and more; and i won a lot, lost a couple; must have been almost 30 years ago; far i have come! but now i am hitting a brick wall; not much to winn anymore; at least not on short termā€¦ as i have said before; now i will have to accept what i canā€™t changeā€¦

still i might be the happiest person on earth (or i should say might become; i am still working on it; though happyness isnā€™t a goal by itself, to meā€¦) i have known hard times; and i got through, iĀ even won eventualyā€¦

this is how messed up i am; i posted this as a page; gheghegheghe; ah well, i fixed it; now as for tags; lets see….

 

peter

update: best advertising i ever had was advertising myself, with postcards on flyerpaper, presenting myself and my art, while engaging in (mostly) interesting conversations….

sports & stuff

i had hoped to be able to take less medicine by now, but i tried as hard as i could, and i can’t, there’s too much stressing in my life, bummer!!! i am working out something for renting a place of my own; still advertising, still clearing up the mess, still working hard to be ready… this takes up all the energy i have… still i am trying to lose weight, build up muscles, and stamina; as it is i am not very strong, very easily out of breath…

so i am pumping iron again, riding my bike, taking walks etc… finaly i am beginning to feel better about myself; from time to time i find myself smiling, for no reason…

also i am working on my sites, reading books (clearing up the mess) figuring out what is absolutely nescesarry an what has to go… i realy want to keep the good study material up, i have a lot of books on social behavior, that i realy want to study, because social behavior isn’t my strongest point….(at all šŸ™‚ )

things seem to be working out, for now, lets hope it stays that way…

i am develloping a lot of things on my creative side, wich you will hear/see, in the nearby future, but for now, housing takes up my every breath…

that’s all for now,

c ya soon

did you know

that the papers, and the news on the tele are lying to us? do you actualy believe that the news on social media is any better? just saying… we just might believe that we, here in the free world are Always right; now ask yourself… are we? ok you can google the answer…pffft…

but what do you feel? and did you know that your feelings are the most skilled liar of all? what about any book then? feel… ask yourself…can we still be friends?

 

peter

procrastination-glasses have arived!!!

i have been delaying for as long as i could, not that i hate the idea, but finaly i made up my mind; i am not putting up with it anymore, time to do something about it, for more than a year now, quite a lot more, my seeing has been crap, i couldn’t even read street-signs from across the street, anymore; i pat myself on the shoulder everytime i “recognized” a shield, but truth is, i don’t see dick anymore, so now word is out; finaly i have ordered me a pair of glasses…. ( šŸ™‚ ), first one to make a funny move will be dead within secconds… yes! i can see you!

so i went to the optician, had my eyes measured, and a pair of glasses will come my way in about two weeks; a bill, a costly Enterprise… 550 euros, with every reduction, and Insurance support accounted for; wow, that is a lot of money for such a fragile thing! i wouldn’t if i didn’t have to…. šŸ™

but happy now, it has been bugging me for quite some time and i feel a lot better now i took the big leap; it will take some adjusting, but i suppose i will be ok, it’s not the end of the world, it is not like iĀ am getting weak in the brain šŸ™‚

so now you will be able to read how glasses made my life absolutely fantastic…. ghegheghe

c’ya

peter

 

update-

my glasses have arived!!!IMG_0490[1]you can breathe now…

i think i did rather well, didn’t i?

and a good day to you too…

peter