i have been snooping around on a few datingsites, results weren’t too great, but i found a good friend, a soul mate, a little later, i might have found a lover too, but, long story short, we were both too damaged to continue, shame, a little hurt, even friendship didn’t work out for us… but i found this other friend, we are only mailing, but it feels good, just friends, but it feels verry good!!!
new subject; i haven’t been drinking for 9 months now; i did have a couple of beers a few weeks ago, but that was the only alcohollic beverage i consumed in 9 monts, 9 months almost completely sober!!!!! i am aiming for a year, but i think, maybe this not-drinking isn’t so bad….at least my body feels a whole lot better now…
getting more of a grip on myself, learning to listen to my body, and say no, once in a while….
passed months have been quite a rollercoaster… tired now…
still working on some flute pieces, quena especialy, hope i will be ready to post some soon…
i used to dream about having my own shakuhachi (japanese meditation flute), now i own a xiao (chinese shakuhachi), and will be owning a real japanese shakuhachi soon; i used to say (and still do) “the shakuhachi is the king of all flutes, though nowadays i’d rather fool around with the queen, the quena! 🙂
some pieces of my life are finaly starting to fit together, these flute’s can be a symbol for that; or a metafor….i waited so long, and worked so hard; hanibal said; “i love it when a plan comes together” 🙂
these flutes are quite expensive, have to save for a long time, but it is worth the effort….
i haven’t been posting a lot because i am moving to my own apartment; another big change! it has been a lot of work, and now we are almost done moving my stuff to my new place (i have a lot to thank for!) (my parents were like the big boulder, my storm and rage couldn’t harm…)
it will take me awhile before i will install me some internet, Phone, that sort of thing… still a lot of things have to be aranged, or worked out, and having my own pjuter and Phone will probably be the last thing i need to realy install myself in my new place, my new life…
ah, well, that’s all for now… maybe more next time,