did you know

that the papers, and the news on the tele are lying to us? do you actualy believe that the news on social media is any better? just saying… we just might believe that we, here in the free world are Always right; now ask yourself… are we? ok you can google the answer…pffft…

but what do you feel? and did you know that your feelings are the most skilled liar of all? what about any book then? feel… ask yourself…can we still be friends?



delaying-glasses have arived!!!

i have been delaying for as long as i could, not that i hate the idea, but finaly i made up my mind; i am not putting up with it anymore, time to do something about it, for more than a year now, quite a lot more, my seeing has been crap, i couldn’t even read street-signs from across the street, anymore; i pat myself on the shoulder everytime i “recognized” a shield, but truth is, i don’t see dick anymore, so now word is out; finaly i have ordered me a pair of glasses…. ( ๐Ÿ™‚ ), first one to make a funny move will be dead within secconds… yes! i can see you!

so i went to the optician, had my eyes measured, and a pair of glasses will come my way in about two weeks; a bill, a costly Enterprise… 550 euros, with every reduction, and Insurance support accounted for; wow, that is a lot of money for such a fragile thing! i wouldn’t if i didn’t have to…. ๐Ÿ™

but happy now, it has been bugging me for quite some time and i feel a lot better now i took the big leap; it will take some adjusting, but i suppose i will be ok, it’s not the end of the world, it is not like iย am getting weak in the brain ๐Ÿ™‚

so now you will be able to read how glasses made my life absolutely fantastic…. ghegheghe





my glasses have arived!!!IMG_0490[1]you can breathe now…

i think i did rather well, didn’t i?

and a good day to you too…


quite a fuss…

it has been quite a fuss, down here, my dad had an attack and was in the hospital for a week, then recovering, getting his speech back among other things; nowadays, there is more for me to do, got to lend a hand, and that is ok by me, that is… if i can get my own things done aswel… lots of misunderstanding… i hope it will get better… after all i am only human…and i am troubled too…

hope i can find the time to go to gallery nasty alice again… a good way to ease and distract my mind (make some photo’s; cus i am still learning….)

now i have been sober for a week (figuring… is it ok? should i do less, more? 1 beer in a week…that isn’t much, is it?) my body is having trouble with alcohol, a few beers is ok but it is realy wrecking me… again i am thinking about not drinking at all… but then, nothing, realy nothing? it still seems like a bridge too far…

after two and a half year of being a non smoker, i still have those moments i realy crave for a cigarette… awhile ago it was quite horror again, still fighting it…ghegheghe, but now more positive about it

breaking my other habits is coming aloong nicely, a little trouble sometimes, but it is ok, though i am gaining weight again (not good, pfff…) where the fuck is that coming from? working harder, and harder, and eating better and better, no fat, no Sugar… pffff…..(i guess i will be ok, but actualy i hoped for some weight-loss by now….)

i have been looking up some old stuff lately, giving most of it away, but strolling down memorylane too, and it is nice to be helpfull…

oh, i think there is some more work waiting for me, gotta go now, you behave, you hear!


hi there, hello!!

i haven’t been well at all for quite some time, but things are looking up again, or at least i am not that depressed anymore; still lonely, but hey…welkome to the real world or something… it isn’t all a bed of roses, have i got news to tell you? not much… i wus practissing my quena flute; i have been for quite some time, biggest part of a year, i guess, but what i mean is, only recently i am beginning to play music with it (oh, joy, oh, joy) you can actually expect me to reccord a few new melodees and post them here on my reepke.com! i have also been practissing my guitar, i wish to reccord and post anย updated version of “droevig liedje” wich is one of my favorites…

i am still fighting off depression; life has been quite hard on me; but i am letting the Sunshine in, i try to enjoy myself; going out, visiting freinds, that sort of thing

weight is doing ok, body is doing ok too, still facing my almost-addictions; like Sugar, but i am letting it hang loose for awhile, take what i have accomplished, and more or less consolidate (if that is the right word); sometimes i am spinning to hard because of what i am trying to do; that’s not ok; working on my health is ok, attempting at it too hard is not… that’s like inviting failure (ghegheghe)

this new version of reepke.com is getting more fun; gotta be careful too, lately i am nearly getting too much visits, it is nice, but i wory…it is realy a bit overwhealming sometimes; gotta deal with that too (gheghe) (luxury-problems)

as y’all know i have stopped smoking; i can realy reccomend e-cigaret whitout nicotine, to get through the worst…i am free now…and glad to be…. (not smoking, nore e-smoking anymore; freeeeeeeeeeeehhh!!!!)

thanks for sharing these moments with me, as for now, i am returning to my quena flutes, practisse some more; lots of love

signing off,



nasty alice

i wus visiting gallery nasty allice again (my dutch viewers know….) and the exposition this time was themed “gothic”, even to non-art-folk like me it is clear that there are (dark skies and other) gothic influences; my reference is mostly the metal-subculture ( my bad; sorry ๐Ÿ™‚ ) but the theme is expressed more widely (somehow i wus thinking about renesance ? golden age? that sort of thing? ) but then those sculs brought me back to the motorhead association…(see photo)

everything is expressed in good taste, and it seems like there is lots of media attention for nasty alice, whom i know by now, is diverse, sometimes provoking; but not nasty at all…ghegheghe

ah well, so much to see, so much to do, and so little time, but please, if you are in the neighbourhood, go see for yourself…(here’s a link —>)ย nasty aliceย !!!(eindhoven)IMG_1368[1]IMG_1372[1]IMG_1370[1]IMG_1371[1]

for ever alone?

i have been alone for 27 years now, cried many tears, still, it looks everything like i am going to be alone for 27 more; that is, if i live that long…tried everything that was within my grasp, but i am not going to boast and bragg, to get female attention, why is it so hard to understand, that i don’t want to take up that much space, i let go of my ego years ago…being alone hurts…especialy after 27 years of crying, pulling yourself together, and falling apart again…i love myself too much to try and be someone or something else than just myself; so i will probably have to accept that alone is al there is… and that sucks!

free hugs (Christmas 2015)

hi, me thinks i’ll be at the catharina plein in eindhoven tomorow; taking pictures and giving away free hugs (23-12-’15) (19-21 hours); this is the Christmas edition, a nice way to spread some love…..



it was good to be there, not much people on the move, but there was a large groop of huggers again; i would have expected more shoppers, but that wus ok; it was fun, lots of people sharing the warmth…


beer, and tasty things (market)-life is good

next time i wil think some more about it; i allow myself two beers in a week, then it must be a festivity, dumb me, i had beet-juice this morning, and it absolutely ruined enjoying my belgian beer- now i know, they don’t mix, as for taste…by the way, here’s a photo of this afternoon, that’s in veldhoven, in case you were wondering (veldhoven, Netherlands)IMG_1366[1]i also went for some catfood (yes i spoil my house monster, completely)dannys dierenschop; veldhoven(this is danny’s dierenshop; veldhoven) and for some tasty bits for myself aswell, photo down here…IMG_1367[1]mmm, that is tasty mediteranean…

thats all for now, gotta work on my other pages…


(of course leffe; actualy lesse is one of the truely great belgian beers; it was only my mistake to drink a super heavy beet juice in the morning…)